I can’t help it

I need to explore

This small town isn’t enough

The stress of the constant stream of exams, presentations and assignments combined with the stress of living in this godforsaken hell hole of a flat has resulted in  my hair falling out, insomnia and a severe anger problem

I don’t think I’ll ever be exceptional at anything

Dance, Fitness, Looks, Humour, Brains, General Knowledge, Specialised skills, Music, Singing.. Cooking..

Nothing, just all round average plain jane right here

How dull

It is honestly worrying, the amount of times I’ve watched Dorian Gray..

I just can’t seem to understand why people want to meet up with me and miss me and want to talk to me..

I’m just annoying, boring and have nothing to contribute to a friendship

So I might as well just stay by myself

I don’t want to go to sleep because then the sooner I’ll wake up and the sooner it’l be my birthday

ergh

I regret nothing

forever

is that so wrong

I want to be a pastel coloured Wednesday Adams

I seem to be wasting the best days of my life 

I never have time to meet up with my friends over the holidays because I have so much work and revision to do

But then when I have free time I do anything possible to avoid doing the work and revision

Catch 22 

Stupid self

Prioritise! 

Things that I MUST do this Easter because I always make plans and never follow through because I’m a lazy ass and always find an excuse or reason not to too tired/ need to be up early/ no money/ need to revise ect.:

• Visit my God Parents 
• Visit my Brother at least once
• Have my niece over for a sleep over
• Take a walk along the Thames
• Go to the cinema
• Take my Mother to her favourite restaurant
• Go for a jog around the common near me and enjoy it
• Go to the common to revise 
• Make a revision posters
• See my girl friends for (a) a night out, (b) a sleep over, and (c) a drink. All at least once
• See all my other friends, at least once, at least for an hour, just to catch up